What are you afraid of.......

“The greater danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it.” 
– Michelangelo (1475-1564)

I was moved by poetry.........

hourglass :: a last love poem

i loved you
as much as i could
as long as i could
hard as i could
hard as it was

steadily holding on
to the small piece of maybe
that was finally destroyed

i have done all i can

we came together
in our respective corners
at the bottom of an hourglass
with our own strengths
our own wounds

marriage is to be found
in the voyage
through the tiny neck
of this timepiece

crossing up and over
to the opposite quadrants
those qualities of the other
missing in ourselves
are to be absorbed
for each to become whole

my love
hard as we tried
we simply did not make it
through the passage
the wounds too deep
the rage too loud
the voice too silent

and though i love you
i cannot be
married to you
i lost myself
in the giving of everything
to you

i now know
heartbreak in one
is a pain
unable to be healed
by the other

we can only
heal ourselves

for months
i have been nowhere
and everywhere
wheeling my home behind me
into the havens of others
now i need to land safely
inside the space of my own

i was starving to death
before hunger finally saved my life
waking me to desire

and now you are
free from the wanting more
than i could give
and i will love you
beyond the wound

~ from Writing for My Life…Reclaiming the Lost Pieces of Me: A Poetic Journey by Nancy Levin

Has God Gained Weight Lately?

I had a life-changing experience yesterday.  It is too complex to share right now.  I will at some point :)  For now, the jest of it IS this: when you are WILL-ing to be and act from where you are most vulnerable, and you are WILL-ing to surrender to your experience of this truth, you WILL be heard by the Universe in full.  The right people, forces, influences, energies WILL align for you; along with all that you need, at the exact time, to propel you forth in the RIGHT direction, for your greatest good, that will also serve the Universe at the highest level.

The only condition is that, you must remain attached to your desired experience, that, which feels RIGHT at your core--all while remaining completely DEtached from what the outcome would look like.  Such Magic occurred yesterday.   Instead of the tides, circumstances, I have been seemingly fighting against, that really wore me out, put me out of my element, and only increased my insecurities and fears, I surrendered, and went with a decision, completely unlikely of the former, and I found open doors.  I found kindness, light, and open arms of support in my purpose.  What is more, the first thing this morning, I opened my eyes to an email, in response to all this.  So many details paving me a new path to step on and follow

I let go, I let God.  I opened without, even realizing at the time, to something that was unknown, subtle, gentle, yet powerful and beautiful; and it answered.

As I contemplated this morning, I could not help but burst out laughing, wondering if God had gained weight lately?  You can tell I am a living example of what I teach at the physical realms.  I pictured God with slight love handles.  I.e. when we watch great movies, we are likely snacking on something comforting at the same time.  If we do this too much, too often, without counter balancing the habit, we can, and likely will, gain a little extra weight.  I imagined God watching our human movies, while snacking, and being amused.  The 'independent' busy-bees, wanting to make it all happen on our own, working hard to prove it to the world, and to every one else, that we can, and WIL do it alone...on our own; needing nothing or no one.  I also think it is funny; we all do it.

Take with you this from my above ramble: TRUST that in your heart, in your purest, most sincere connection to what your own definition is of God, it is there with you, it is One with you.  You are One with the greatest Perfection and most lively force of your existence.  Let this be.  Marry this force.  Marry the best in you, so you can and are ONE, with it all.   Let this beautiful force drive you up every day to the best you can be, do, and have, and experience.