"Better Than Me"  

I think I can do much better than you

After all the lies you put me through. 

Guilt kicks in and you start to see...

Visions of [you and] me.

You told yourself a million times; you won't miss me.

But you have to face it, I am different;

And you can't let the notion of me go;

You just can't release.

You reminisce;

You see me next to you; you swear you can touch me

You close your eyes

Reach out and pull me in

You grab me

Through the thin silhouette of my dress, 

Your manly remarks possess me

You feel my weight collapse on you.

Up close and very personal

You give in;

You always loved my hair in your face

You freeze, because you suddenly remember

What it feels like beside me.

 You really miss my hair in your face

And the way my innocence tastes

And you exclaim: 

There is NO WAY there would be anyone better than you; for me

While looking through my old box of notes

You find my pictures you took

that you used to so adore

If there's one memory you know you can't lose

That time at the mall...

in the dressing room...

Again, you remind yourself how you swore you wouldn't miss me

But you remember

What it feels like beside me

You really miss my hair in your face

And the way my innocence tastes

And you wonder, if there might just be someone better than you, for me

The bed you are lying in is getting colder

You wish I never would've said it's over

This time you can't pretend... 

You won't think about me when you are older

Cause we never really had our closure

You scream:

This can't be the end!

Yet it is.

How painful; how sad. How real.

The feeling rids you of your inside...

At last; you really miss my hair in your face. 

_MK